wrking in diz field iz reallie hard and all i ask 4 iz my mom's n sis's nyer support. everytime aku pulang, mak aku tanyer whether i managed 2 close a deal but when aku gelengkan paler, aku cumer mintak der ckp "tk per lah.. cuber lg laen kali". it damn hurtz when der find diz like a lobang ntok bwat aku quit diz job. she said tat she dun like seeing me doing diz job but wat she doesnt understand [or she choose not 2] iz tat i lurve d job. d challenge of d job. wat i learn n get 4rom diz job. but d tot of not having my family support, having 2 face future rejections from ppl, n relative2 aku yg damn say it 2 my face dat i reallie cant make it wif diz job az my career seriouslynyer bwat confidence aku hit rock bottom. i feel like i'm wasting my time convincing these ppl wat i see.
i feel like a ****ing loser who doesnt haf d confidence 2 pursue wat i like but like wat i wrote in my o level essay, choosing a career not onlie involves d pay n interest, moral support from family n frenz iz one of the most important factors. not tat i am considering 2 make diz my career but giving up now, i......... argh!!! i'm not d type 2 give up juz bcoz of a few obstacles along my path.. i hate diz crap. i wish i never went 4 d interview @ d frz place. i wish i never even noe abt diz job. i wish i can juz turn back time n juz live aku nyer life happily. pressure @ d office from d supervising officers n pressure @ home by d mum iz reallie driving me nuts.
i wanna go back 2 sch................................. *sobz*